You’re Not ‘Crazy’—No Matter What Your Partner Says

Is your partner gaslighting you? If you’ve ever felt crazy in a relationship, this is for you.

| January 26th, 2012
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Some relationships end like a gradual descent into madness. At least, that’s how the end came to Brooke*. From the start, her relationship with Jon was one of the most amazing, intense relationships she’s ever had. They felt like equals, saw eye to eye, fell head over heels in love—the physical attraction was “delicious.” Then, five months into the relationship, she told him that if he ever wanted to move in together, she’d be “totally down.”

So began an excruciating end.

Over the next few months, with no explanation (and no moving in together), he stopped saying ‘I love you,’ retreated into a shell and shut her out. “It was like a slow-motion heartbreak,” she recalls. “I didn’t understand what was going on.”

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One afternoon, crying on his couch, she begged him to explain, to give some indication of why his feelings changed. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” was all he had to say. She wondered if she was going crazy, but she knows she didn’t imagine what he did next: “He put his hand over my heart, my upper chest, and just very slowly pushed me out of the apartment. He kept one hand on my chest as he opened the door and literally pushed me out.” As he closed the door, she collapsed. “I couldn’t breathe. I remember just covering my eyes and walking out to the street and wanting to evaporate, wanting to absolutely disappear.”

Most of us, like Brooke, have had our true feelings dismissed by someone we cared about. Perhaps your experience was less dramatic—your partner often said you were overreacting, or insisted you had a roving eye—but no matter the severity, your partner may have been gaslighting you.

If so, learning to spot this kind of crafty manipulation will change your life.

The Gaslighting Effect 

Ingrid Bergman made Brooke’s experience famous, long before Brooke was even born. In the 1944 thriller, “Gaslight,” Bergman plays a woman whose husband is trying to convince her she’s crazy. He makes objects disappear and claims she took them or makes the gaslights dim and brighten for no reason. All the while, he convinces her that what she believes is true (that she didn’t take the objects and the lights are dimming) is a figment of her imagination.

Since then, ‘gaslighting’ has become part of the vernacular, describing a method of psychological manipulation where the victim comes to doubt the reality of his or her own experience, much like Brooke came to doubt that her perception of Jon’s distance was real or her feelings of loss were valid.

In a gaslighting relationship, one person states his or her case with so much certainty and regularity that the victim starts to wonder if it might in fact be true. “It’s not just saying ‘I’m certain,’” says Dr. Robin Stern, psychologist and author of “The Gaslight Effect.” “It’s saying, ‘I’m certain and you don’t know what you’re talking about.’” As a result, the victim is thrown off balance. “Your own confidence and sense of reality is compromised. You can no longer find your center or have confidence in your reality.”

It’s an insidious tactic, to say the least.

Unfortunately, gaslighting can be easy to pull off when there’s an imbalance of power. The perpetrator could be a boss or parent, an idealized partner or the popular girl in high school. Even therapists can easily become the bullies, particularly when a patient feels ready to leave therapy and the therapist says, ‘You’re not ready. This is resistance.’ “Because you’ve given this person power, you have a stake in believing them,” explains Stern. You wonder, ‘Why would my mom lie to me?’ or ‘Why would my therapist mislead me?’ And slowly, you start to accept their reality.

In many cases, gaslighting is also an expression of contempt, where one partner attacks the other with an air of superiority. “Contempt is found in sarcasm, mocking and put-downs,” explains Dr. Bob Navarra, MFT, a certified Gottman couples therapist. “It’s the position that you are crazy for feeling the way you do, that there is something wrong with you.”

It’s the single biggest predictor of separation and relationship unhappiness. 

Elena, 38, fell prey to that statistic. She’s not sure why she married Brett in the first place, though after living together for six years, friends and family expected it and “it was something to do.” Even before the wedding, she knew she’d made the wrong choice. 

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Not long after the wedding, she told Brett that she wanted to break up. “I told him all the typical things,” she says. “That I was unhappy, that I wanted to be in charge of my own life again, that I didn’t see any kind of good future for us and that we were only holding each other back.” She even admitted she’d cheated. He ignored everything she said and blamed it on “depression.”

As she pushed to separate, he created a narrative that she was self-destructive, reckless, an addict. “On my birthday,” she recalls, “I went out drinking with my friends (as I do on my birthday) and was hung over the next day. He claimed that my alcoholism was out of control and that he ‘didn’t know what I would do next’ but suggested I would try to commit suicide or get arrested.”

He painted himself as her savior, as someone trying to salvage the life she was trying to ruin, going so far as to call up her family members to tell them about her ‘addiction problems’ and ‘self-destructiveness.’ She eventually started wondering if she was just in denial—a worry her friends fortunately allayed.   

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