I can't see!

by 2 sided

over 1 year ago

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I am a 42yo mother of two and I can't see myself. At my heaviest weight I was 317 pounds never really thought I was pretty at any point in my life and now it's worst. I feel like I have to hide behind make up to hide how I look. I was never among the popular people even in my adulthood. I recently lost 90 pounds and I can't see it. I still feel fatter than anybody else. I look in the mirror and see a beast who needs to hide I can't even bring myself to take family pictures because I don't want my image caught on film. I was sitting in a chair talking to my daughter one day and she snapped my picture with her phone and I just cried and pleaded with her to delete it. My arms were huge and my hips just spilled out of the chair on the side. I just don't know my self esteem is at an all time low and I don't know which way to turn and crying doesn't work anymore.

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  1stladyQu33n replied over 1 year ago:

  hi 2sided my name queen n 1st i would start by sayn stop comparin urself 2 others cause if u dont u will always c someone who is smaller prettier taller shorter richer n poorer but there will alwayz also b someone bigger uglier dumber n also more unconfident then u so with that bein said 1st start by prayn n bein thankful for what n who u r then find some scriptures and inspiring books on self-esteem start asking God to send ppl ur way who inspire n uplift u everyday and everyway n to remove anyone who dont u see 2sided self esteem starts with self 1st then other people follow make a list of things that u feel will help lift ur selfesteem then start doing them 1 at a time as far as your weight go when was the last time u bought a new outfit n went out even if its just for a walk at the park so try looking in the mirrow daily and say i am beautiful n healthier by the day n keep me updated on ur progress smoochez.........

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  bettyliem replied 10 months ago:

  Why don't you eat less?

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  rockerbaby2003 replied 10 months ago:

  I would say if your problem is that deep rooted that you actually fear your picture being taken, you should seek professional help. Keep going with a good diet and exercise, take measurements of yourself and write them down. I would suggest facing your fear and take pictures of yourself in underware and keep them somewhere private. This is the beginning of more weight to lose, and you can use those pictures and measurement as motivation to keep going. Then you'll be proud to take more pictures of yourself and see how your body is physically changing. And don't think of it as a diet, think of it as a lifestyle change to change your body for the rest of your life. 

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  dedece replied 10 months ago:

  2 sided be proud you lost 90 pounds! Keep eating right and exercise. Even if it's walking in your neighborhood or in a large store. Just move and do fun things, like outdoor recreational things. I lost 80 pounds, not through quite yet. When I was at my highest weight I had trouble seeing my feet. I was like, I can't see my own feet! I knew I had to do something and I did. I am so happy and relieved to be 80 pounds lighter. I know you are happy about losing 90 pounds. What a great achievement! When you feel down, talk to someone you know will make you feel better and will support you. Your family, best friend, or maybe a counselor. It is good to talk to someone when you feel like this. I know. Keep your support group and talk to them. It will help. It may feel like it is not or it's taking too long, but don't give up. Remain strong and proud. You sound like a beautiful person on the inside and the out. Your daughter loves you! I know that by her wanting to take your picture because she thinks her mom is beautiful! Hope this helps you somewhat. Good luck. Hope you feel a lot better soon.

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