editorNadia replied over 1 year ago:
It sounds like you're in a lot of pain, and if you are considering suicide, there are people available to help you. If you are ever in a situation where you feel suicidal, you can call 1-800-273-TALK and talk to someone on the spot. You are not alone--all you need to do is call. Setting up an appointment with a mental health professional (like a social worker or psychologist) can help address your feelings that you've missed out on a lot in life and empower you to embrace the future you have ahead of you. You can talk to your primary care physician or a friend for a reference or, if you feel more comfortable finding someone anonymously, you can search online for a therapist in your area: http://www.nacbt.org/searchfortherapists.asp. Have you also spoken with your primary care physician about the symptoms you're feeling? Our mental and physical health affect each other, so approaching your health from several angles is the best way to start feeling better. Be persistent--you're worth it.