I knew something was wrong with me between 10th and 12th grade when I didn't have my period. I was kind of embarrassed to tell anyone so I kept it to myself even telling myself that I didn't have a period because I played varsity sports. But toward the end of my senior year, I knew I had to tell someone so I went to my doctor and long story short, I have PCOS. It sucks because I feel that it gets in the way of so much. For example: I work out every day, I walk to work (only 5 minutes away from my house but still) and I still haven't seen any results. I lost weight, but I still feel fat. I did research and found that PCOS makes it harder for a person to lose weight. Another example: I take birth control to have regular periods. But the birth control has so many side effects. It makes my back ache, I break out, I start growing hair around my chin. I honestly feel less like a woman and it makes me cry because......I don't know how to deal with it all. Is there anything that can help me lose weight while having this condition? What can I do to combat the acne, back aches, and hair growth? And then I'm kind of torn because I found that PCOS makes it harder to have children, but I'm 50/50 in that department. Some days I think it would be nice to have a family and on other days I tell myself I don't want to have kids. But I feel that other women suffering from PCOS who want to have children will look at me like I'm being selfish, but I honestly don't think I could handle it. I'm so confused.......What can I do?
