by greenpeace205
9 months ago
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Well I have cancer for the third time and its been hard on everyone. I just started chemo again. Ive been with my boyfriend for 4 years and the day before I left for the hospital he told me he doesnt know if he can be there for me this time and that there was a girl at his work that liked him(who has 2 kids and a fiance, one of her kids is 2 months old) I could tell he liked her back because when I went up there to eat they were talking to each other constantly right in front of my face even though I told him several times it was bothering me(this was before he told me she liked him but I could tell). It started out with her giving him her number and adding him on facebook and when I asked him who she was he was like "she has a fiance and wants to hangout with us" but yet he didnt tell me about her until I asked and he didnt introduce us when I went up to his work. That night he starting telling me about how her fiance doesnt provide for her and steals from her purse and stuff.(which she lied about) Anyways so I was in the hospital for 2 weeks and he came to see me 1 time for like 2 hours. Sometimes I would call him and he would be like"why are you calling me i dont want to talk to you" and hangup. Sometimes he would talk to me though. I was already getting fed up of being treated that way while I was in the hospital fighting for my life.
when I got home i found text messages from them she asked him if he had any regrets with her and he said no just nervous. she was tellin him how much she liked him and asking him to come over when he got off work(her fiance works nights) and he told her it would kill him to wait another day. It killed me to see him talk to another woman that way. So I left him and he was begging me to come home saying that he loved me and nothing happened with her that he was just lonely and they just had a couple of beers and then he went home. And that she came over once and had a beer and left. I confronted her on FB message and we really got into it with eachother. She started making fun of me for things that he had told her about me. Very personal things. Like about how I dont have a belly button from all my surgeries and how my hair is fake because my real hair fell out. WHY WOULD HE TELL HER THAT STUFF?!?!? for a week all I could think about was beating her face into a bloody pulp, but im not going to do that. I dont think I can ever forgive him because I don't know what really happened between them. I know he stopped talking to her because i saw messages from her sayin quit ignoring me and stuff and he is getting a new job, but Im about to go back to the hospital in 2 days and theres gunna be more girls at his new job. I will never trust him again but we have been through so much together. I also have to add that in the past he used to sneak out at night to hangout with this girl but they were "just friends" I have left him other times but always come back. I don't know what to do????
First off I want to send my prayers that you recover soon and beat your cancer. Honey your physical condition is not where is should be right now, and being emotional is only fueling the cancer that ails you and that is not good. Right now you need to focus all your energy on getting better. I was in the hospital sick when my ex-husband cheated and I knew one thing for certain he was not worth my emotional or my physical well being and I would venture to say the same thing applies to you. Anger, sadness, discontent and any other emotions disrupts your physical state and remission will be almosts impossible if your mind is not settled. I truly sympathize with your situation and if you need someone to write to or send words of encouragement I will gladly offer my time, pen, ink, keystrokes or whatever else it took for you to leave this man and focus on your recovery. This occurence with you boyfriend is not an anomoly it is pattern and only you can break yourself free from it. Be strong - God bless you sweetheart and get well very very soon!
Erika
This is great! No laughing matter--but you had me laughing....Thanks! 
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