what if the one u loved walked away?

My dearest ****, I want you to know I appreciate all that you share with me, you not only share a truly blessed experience but you enlightened me to a new extent which I wouldn’t allow anyone to reach… honestly I thought you were “my forever” if one does exist…it’s weird how I reached this amazing level with you in such a short amount of time, as time went on I thought to myself WOW I came so close to meeting you so many times over the years, but we just missed each other time & time again…. sounds like a love story by one of my favorite writers Nicolas Sparks…anyway, maybe it wasn’t time now either… but we crossed path sooner rather than later… know I’m grateful for you, to know you, to know your life (your life being your kids). Know, I totally understand okay… honestly. It don’t make it HURT any less but understandable it is. Life’s taught me two things over and over again… letting go is one of the hardest things there is in LIFE and time is priceless…letting you guys go will be one of the hardest things I have to do but I TRULY appreciate the time spent. It’s better to have loved & lost then to never know love right…to bad when it come to an end it hurts as much as it feels good… I’d like to Thank you for trying to be what I wanted….you asked me once, (what seems to be so long ago now)…what I wanted?…I said I want someone that I can be weak with because I’m tired of being strong…maybe I’m just meant to HAVE to be strong…(where do you file a complaint for that at lol jk)…I know there probably isn’t really a point in saying so now but there is to me and if I don’t say it now I may not get another chance to say it later… you asked me and I said when I did I’d tell you….. I do love you. Being with you makes me forget there was ever anyone else in my life…time stops when I catch eye contact and exchange a smile with you that moment is not only heartwarming but invigorating it made me want to work to keep you happy in return hoping you end up wanting to be besides me, Know if I walk away crying a smile will follow because love doesn’t know bitter…I can write about my feelings for you forever and a day because that’s about how many I have for you…but instead I will share my favorite quote….that’s actually quoting the bible believe it or not …I’m sure you’ve heard it before… Love is always patient & kind. It is never jealous. Loves is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins. But delights in truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope & to endure whatever comes…. I always thought that was so nicely said As I told you before I hope you & your kids find all that you need & everything your hearts always wanted. I just hope your memories of me are happy ones…