LadyLili replied over 1 year ago:
Girl, slow down. You are not alone in these issues and I have recently gotten through having ALL of the issues you just listed except I don't have a step-son in my household. You need to take care of you. Look at your life and figure out what you can handle right now. If you honestly can't handle it all, cut something out. If your school needs to wait a year or so, make the calls necessary to keep yourself in good standing to return when you can. Don't just drop out or you will be setting yourself up for more stress down the road. Talk to your husband about maybe taking the car one day a week to spend a couple of hours out of the house for some "you time." Your sanity depends on it. If you aren't healthy, you can't take care of the kids or your husband well. Plus, your hubby should be more than capable of taking care of the kids for you to do it. You do it, why shouldn't he? Also, be honest with yourself about your daily behaviors. Are they healthy? Do you have more time than you think to do something for yourself? Take a bath, take a walk, draw or paint something, write something, shut yourself in your room and dance your *** off, do SOMETHING that is just for you and that doesn't tether you to a screen, either computer or tv or phone. Unplug for yourself, escape for yourself and let yourself breathe. And, most importantly, don't be so hard on yourself. It's not on your shoulders if your school shuts down, there are other schools. If the kids are screaming and you want to pull your hair out, put them all in SAFE places and walk away to where you can't hear them for a FEW minutes, just long enough to regain control, and then come back and handle things the best you can. Kids don't get hurt from crying, I had to remind myself of that a lot. And forgive yourself. Nothing is going to go perfectly and less than half will go the way you think it should. Be willing to let it go if you have to. AND DON'T BE AFRAID TO TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR!! There are meds out there that can help if you can't keep control yourself, and a lot of them can be used short-term while things are really hard. I know it's hard and that other people usually don't understand, but I hope I've helped a little. Chin up! Those babies LOVE their mommy no matter what. Remember that, too.