A Tribute To Haley

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A Tribute to Haley

This month’s column is a tribute to a woman I’ve known and worked with since she was a girl. Haley is now in college, but her story could be that of any age. Maybe you’ll see yourself in her struggles and triumphs. Haley is everyone who has worked so hard for so long to climb to the top of her own mountain and now something inside of her is getting in the way. I’m honoring Haley because she fills my heart, and she breaks my heart, and because she is finally letting herself start to see how amazing she is.

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Why Little Haley Needs a Hug
When Haley was in elementary school, her parents got divorced. But, that wasn’t the problem. The problem was that they had major conflict during the marriage, during the divorce, and for years afterwards. They didn’t just have little arguments—they had huge destructive battles punctuated by their own emotional illnesses. As you might assume, Haley was significantly impacted by their terrible conflicts and forced into the middle at times. She also was the target of very hurtful abusive words and behaviors for years, especially from her mother. Though the pain was unintended and largely the result of her mother’s own illnesses and limitations, it was very real.

Though Haley has always been smart and talented and kind and beautiful, she was never able to see it. She developed very low self-esteem and major depression. Over the years, Haley also developed a raging eating disorder, which would certainly have killed her, if she hadn’t decided to fight for her life.

In the process of recovery, we discussed how her inner “Little Hayley” never got to have a childhood full of love and nurturing and innocence. So, sometimes Little Hayley needs a hug. These are the times that Haley has learned to focus on respecting her grief for her lost childhood and caring for her present self. No matter what challenges you’ve faced, respecting yourself and your journey can be comforting and empowering.

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Haley worked so hard for so many years, and she became physically healthy and emotionally stronger. She developed fairly good boundaries with her parents and found other sources of support. She allowed herself to see her achievements and pursue some of her passions. But it’s very difficult to truly move beyond the pain of the past. Which brings us to…

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